Grip - get a grip. You must be young and haven't learned the lesson yet. It's like Pablo says, there's always going to be someone out there that will send you wimpering away with your tail between your legs.
You'll never get to the top of the heap, but if you want to be higher on it, all it takes is experience and lots of money. If you don't have those and you're still obsessed with it, try therapy.
